TTC

Trying To Conceive

We have been TTC since my husband said "aku terima nikahnya...". Its been a while of waiting and trying and doa and ikhtiar. We have tried urut, traditional way ( drinking/eating herbs) ,bekam, go to hospital and have it all checked and etc. All i can conclude is,its not our time yet. Allah knows best.

Our journey may seem plain and dull to others since i rarely share my life to social media.

The ups and downs of our marriage make it all colourful, yet part of not having child is not all grey or black and white.

But somehow, deep inside, we always hope to have at least a child.

I had miscarriaged once in 2014. Its too painful physically and emotionally to even talk about it.

For the 7th year of TTC, we are trying to improve ourselves spiritually ie. recite the quran, solat hajat, berzikir and etc. Thus, these are some doa i would like to share for those who are on the same boat as us:-

*Doa-doa ikhtiar zuriat*

هُنَالِكَ دَعَا زَكَرِيَّا رَبَّهُ ۖ قَالَ رَبِّ هَبْ لِي مِنْ لَدُنْكَ ذُرِّيَّةً طَيِّبَةً ۖ إِنَّكَ سَمِيعُ الدُّعَاءِ

(Abdullah Muhammad Basmeih)
Ketika itu Nabi Zakaria berdoa kepada Tuhannya, katanya:" Wahai Tuhanku! Kurniakanlah kepadaku dari sisiMu zuriat keturunan yang baik; sesungguhnya Engkau sentiasa Mendengar (menerima) doa permohonan".

*-Sura Aal-E-Imran, Ayah 38*

وَهُوَ الَّذِي خَلَقَ مِنَ الْمَاءِ بَشَرًا فَجَعَلَهُ نَسَبًا وَصِهْرًا ۗ وَكَانَ رَبُّكَ قَدِيرًا

(Abdullah Muhammad Basmeih)
Dan Dia lah Tuhan yang menciptakan manusia dari air, lalu dijadikannya (mempunyai) titisan baka dan penalian keluarga (persemendaan); dan sememangnya tuhanmu berkuasa (menciptakan apa jua yang dikehendakiNya).

*-Sura Al-Furqan, Ayah 54*

أَوَلَمْ يَرَ الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا أَنَّ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضَ كَانَتَا رَتْقًا فَفَتَقْنَاهُمَا ۖ وَجَعَلْنَا مِنَ الْمَاءِ كُلَّ شَيْءٍ حَيٍّ ۖ أَفَلَا يُؤْمِنُونَ

(Abdullah Muhammad Basmeih)
Dan tidakkah orang-orang kafir itu memikirkan dan mempercayai bahawa sesungguhnya langit dan bumi itu pada asal mulanya bercantum (sebagai benda yang satu), lalu Kami pisahkan antara keduanya? Dan Kami jadikan dari air, tiap-tiap benda yang hidup? Maka mengapa mereka tidak mahu beriman?

*-Sura Al-Anbiya', Ayah 30*

May our hope become reality one day.

Amin...

Drama sakit mata

My eyes turns red maybe because of i potong cili kecik then try to remove contact lenses i wore an hour later. Or maybe eye infection i may got from somewhere i went.

And guess where these dialogues comes from~

- Eh mata merah. Meh sy kurung dlm bilik. Kuarantin.
- Jangan sentuh sy
- Dont touch me
- Jangan minum air sy
- Basuh tangan sebelum salam. Xya cium pipi.
- Mana hand sanitizer? Pakai

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MY BELOVED HUSBAND!

All he care is if he got sick,he cant go to work. 😂

Or he will be the one who started wabak. 😒😒😒

Honeymooners in Boracay

For a 4 years married couple with no child and living separately, i consider myself and my husband as honeymooners. OK.That's explain the title.

On 8-10 of September we went to Boracay Island, Philippines by Air Asia flight to Kalibo Airport. Kalibo is the gateway to Boracay. I bought the ticket on Feb 2014. The tickets cost me RM122 per pax including airport tax. If you are looking for the airfare that are affordable and cheap, look no further than Air Asia. But bear in mind that the seats are not so comfy. Definitely not for fussy traveler.

The flight took 4 hours to reach Kalibo Airport. The transportation from Kalibo to Boracay was all arranged weeks before we depart. We use Southwest tour agent for the transportation. Here's  the detail:-
Flight 4hours
Airport to jetty 3 hours
Jetty to boracay island 30 mins
Boracay's jetty to resort 30 mins

We finally reached  our resort at night. Trashed all the bags at the room and went out for dinner. It was hard hard hard to get halal food there. one of the halal restaurant is True Food. They serve indian dishes. But only the lamb and seafood is halal. Chickens are not because they got the chicken from local supplier and the supplier doesnt practise islamic way to cut it. The restaurant  cost us bombs. Very expensive. Plain briyani rice with no meat or gravy, nan with veggie curry, a cup of coffee and small bottle of mineral water costs us about rm50! I'll bring a cooker next time i travel here. Price is one issue,another one was we're fooled by the halal sign. Point is,you should ask the halalness of the food served and never take it from the banner or such.

Boracay's night was very happening.  Cool and hot at the same time. There were lots of performers along the beach. Live bands, dancers, fire eaters dancers and etc. We had fun surrounded by non stop musical performances.

There will be part 2.. insyaallah ..

well i play games, alot!

this is the longest rest i have ever gave to my beloved blog. i haven't write for a while. keeping myself busy by playing games. as for now, i am playing 3 games which are Clash of Clans (c.o.c), Hayday and Kardashian Hollywood. Aside of this game, its quite a hectic month i had lately at the workplace. making myself feeling restless and exhausted.

c.o.c of course, require me to give my full commitment to this game as if it is my daughter. haha. i started playing this game on dec 2013, but playing seriously on march 2014 i guess. i cant remember the exact date. this game is so addictive, i even use the real money to buy the gems. it is a strategy game consisting multiplayer battle including clan wars. what making it is more addictive is being in the right clan. clanmates that keep supporting each other and loyalty are the backbone of the clan's strength.

hayday is typical farming buy and sell game. what makes it different is, it has neighborhood that we can rely on and requesting help to complete the missions. this game literally help me reduce my real shopping addiction because the game itself is shopping game i may say. we buy crops at lower price, grow them and sell them back at higher or same price. we can get the profit because the crops doubled when we plant it back.

kardashian is a game of building a glamorous career and make it to an A-List celebrity.not much strategies require in this game. only time management skills needed. a relaxing game for me while waiting for my troops training to finish on c.o.c.

p/s: i wrote this entry while playing coc! :)

try it!

feeling 21

"This wild wild love of ours

It can't be tamed, oh

This wild wild love of us

It can't be tamed, oh

For better or worse

A blessing or a curse

Long live this wild wild love of ours"